Hey folks. Lately I’ve had tons and tons of thoughts. Thoughts about life in the tree, leaf, and forest way. Thoughts about how to live life, and what life is. Thoughts about religion and spirituality and logical skepticism and scientific reasoning. Thoughts about goals and money and honor and fame.
How does one live life? I really have no clue. Our bodies just live and don’t seem to ask the question. Animals don’t ask the question. But we aren’t just physical bodies or animals. We have self-consciousness. I can’t tell you how to live life so don’t ask me. With me it’s……. Pursue goals and don’t stop pursuing goals. It’s recognizing that anyone who say’s “I’m complete.” or “I have the answer.” or “I’m an enlightened Buddha after 20 years of meditating.” is deceiving themselves. I’ve realized that being done is not that answer. It’s about never being complete never being done. Being natural….. Our natural selves. It’s about moving forward unceasingly…… Because to quit is a figurative death. Balance is a must though.
Now what is life? Life is simply our environment and our internal world. That’s it. It’s very complicated and very simple. It’s very detailed down to the carbon atoms seen by IBM microscopes and all of the shadows and colors and angles and visual oddities on trees figuratively and literally. It’s very simple like a generalized term “the universe.” One simple representational idea representing it. Balance is a must though. Balance between the tree view and the forest view to see the picture clearly. But this is my own truth…. and what I’ve learned is every one on Earth is an island. Unique islands. And there is no way to communicate our subjective experience correctly in the same way we communicate the objective experience of say the color of a flower or the shape of a triangle. I value seeing things clearly but I’ve learned that I’m me and everyone else has their own values. Some are warriors, some are business tycoons, some are preachers, some are con artists, some are murderers, some intellectuals and some guys with the common sense to use every tool there is. Behind all of that is what drives them which is unique to them.
My goal is to be myself and to stop trying to be some fictional perfect person. My goal is to pursue goals. My goal is function somewhat despite my mental illnesses that goes by the stereotype label ocd. Yeah. Those were some of the thoughts that I happened to remember or happened to just write.